who knew what we know now

good news all around, we heard the word remission, only one more chemo treatment left, back to school next semester, back to Rowmark now.
Its so good to be back there. To be back there designing and fabricating and being around wonderful people but also to have something to make time pass so much more quickly.
I am feeling quite grateful and thankful now, for lots of things and it feels good.
I went to the showchoir send-off tonight. It was great. I wish I could be in this show. I'm not convinced about the final costumes, but I am still jealous. And seeing the people who were just freshman when I was a senior 3 years ago and seeing how they have grown and realizing how long ago that was and how wonderful it was. mmm...so good.
An evening of showchoir and seeing friends and cooking...very enjoyable.
But now I will not be able to sleep and I can tell. I feel like its 7 in the evening right now. I have hours left in me before my body will even consider being sleepy. But I am confused about some happening this evening and wish that I could go to sleep now to make it go away.
But i must focus on my being grateful. I'm silly if I am not.
Mum and I are off to Anderson tomorrow so I can become a student again. Evidently if you have a life-threatening condition that requires you to be out of school, that means you cant be a student anymore. Its a little silly if you ask me. I don't know.
now I must find a way to occupy my anxious brain and hands and not make too huge of a mess.

lots of things

I feel like I am thinking about so many things all at the same time right now.

First and foremost on my mind is the news that i got at the doctor's today. Dr. Brown said that I am going into remission and after a few more treatments, and some other stuff, I should be done in January. That means I should be able to go back to school next semester! oh man! But we still have to see how things play out and what the PET scan says and what can be done about classes.

oh school...i just got back from watching the dress rehearsal for 7 Brides for 7 Brothers at my high school. That was fun. I miss being in musicals and wearing dance shoes. It feels so long ago.

cake....mmm...i am eating the last piece of minty chocolate cake, wishing there were someone special here to share it with with me.

my room is a mess. but hey, i might be moving out again soon.

Heroes, i am watching the first season now. Sylar's mum is Audrey in the Little Shop of Horrors movie. And Sylar. How does he eat all those brains? I feel like that would be a lot to eat. Like eating an entire meatloaf. Ick. Does he eat the whole brain or just the special part? And how does the special get from his belly to his brain. I feel like i am late jumping on the Heroes bandwagon. I should be used to being a late by now. I usually am with these things.

work! i am going to work to tomorrow. Back to Rowmark. I'm pretty excited about that. But it means I have to go to sleep at a normal time.

i need to figure out what I am wearing tomorrow

one year!!

Today is November 7th. That means that Daniel and I have been together for 1 whole year! Whoa! It seems like a big length of time, but it didn't feel like that long. I would reflect more on this, but it wold turn into sap city so i will curb my words.

But i will say this. In celebration, I spend yesterday slaving away in the kitchen. I ended up with a big bowl of penne with white wine sauce and artichoke hearts with chicken and roasted tomatoes. For dessert, three layer chocolate cake with mint and chocolate ganache filling. It is probably the best cake i have ever made.

I can die happy.

coming down

That's what I am doing right now. Coming down. Off of drugs? you ask. Yes, actually. And a lovely weekend as well. Another Halloween has come and gone. Sad, really. I love me some Halloween. Minus the spooky stuff. And dumb people. And how it seems to be a good excuse for everyone to dress like a hooker. So pretty much I just like the making and wearing costumes. Excuse to be creative and dress up, yes, excuse to look like a hooker, no. But it was good. A costume-y success. Sweeney Todd and Mrs. Lovett achieved. With much satisfaction. Now to begin planning for next year....