the doctor and a loaf of bread

Today two things happened.



The first thing is that I had my first appointment with my oncologist, Dr. Brown. It wasn't especially exciting. We got some information, some good news and some bad news. The information is that I will be starting chemotherapy treatments soon. For the sake of those who happen to read this, I will share the bad first: I will lose my hair, I might not be able to go back to school this year. There is another piece of bad news, but my mum seems to want to keep it on the quiet side, so I will leave it out here, but will most likely share it if I talk to you in person anyways because its bothering me.



[This kind of makes me feel like I am lacking some sort of filter, something that everyone else has that tells you whether or not something is appropriate to share with someone, but I don't have it. Sometimes I get the feeling that I share too much, I'm too open about the wrong things. But I don't know if this is the case.]



On to the good news, its that if I did not have Non-Hodgkins Lymphoma, I would have this other thing that would have to be cut out of my chest. The good news is that I don't have to get cut open! I really didn't want that especially since it would be an especially gruesome being cut open. The rest of the good news is that what I have is considered "very treatable" and tends to stay away once it goes away.



Here is something that is difficult now, but i am trying to see the bright side of it: since my hair is going to run away, I am getting a wig. Yes, a wig, like some old woman, but I cannot bear to have a smooth head and wear lots of scarves and hats. I don't even look good in hats when I have hair, let alone when I have no hair.The thing is that I get to pick new hair. I could have what I have now, I suppose, but I am going to have that back in a while and for the rest of m life so, I am want to do something different.



I am down to 3 colors: redder than mine (like auburn, pretty, not scary red), Light blond ( I have been craving this for a while and I am curious), or darker brown ( I don't know about this). I do want 2-tone hair though. I just need to pick a main colour.



As far as cut, I think i want something that is like Katy Perry, Kat Von D, and the girl off Ghost Whisperer....probably leaning towards Katy Perry. I read that you should get something short that way you get used to having short hair for when it starts growing back, but i do not want anything short. No way. I am going to cut my own hair short around the time of my first treatment, so when it starts running off it won't be so bad. Hopefully.



I feel like I am talking alot about my hair. I probably am, but its on my mind. I would love input on it. If anyone is reading this and they have an opinion or idea, I would love to hear it.



I nearly forgot the second thing that happened today: I baked a loaf of bread. It has cranberries and lemon glaze and I am curious to see what it tastes like. We will see later.



So that was today so far. I guarantee nothing exciting is happening tonight.
or tomorrow.
or the day after that....